She’s sitting outside in her old black and red striped pants. It would be dumb to sit outside in the sun because she’s wearing a black tank top. The heat doesn’t bother her. She’s sitting with her old mp3 player and headphones. The sun warms the skin of her closed eyes as she swims through the colors.
It always starts out with red, cherry neon red. Sometimes the red turns into orange. Some times it brown circles cover the neon glow. She forces her eyes to close from all sight and a dull red-brown color covers her sight.
Step one over. She uses the tempo of the music blaring through the soft padding of her headphones as a guide to escape the red reality. Her mind latches onto the sounds as the song whispers and whisks through the wind blowing. Together the sounds of the wind and the music break the chains of her physical reality. Her hidden soul emerges, a fierce bubble made of petroleum and her complex character, it rides and glides through her chakras.
The bubble floats and releases euphoric toxins into her body. Her will forces the bubble through the anger filled arenas, the lust filled marshes, the sparkling feathers and gems, and straight through her heart The void rules her heart, where her three personalities meets.
She doesn’t notice the song anymore. The heat of the sun turning her skin brown fails to warm her. She’s far away from this world, her mind, and spirits around her. The bubble struggles through pierce the void of her heart, but it can’t succeed.
It hasn’t tasted the crystallized sugar of success, yet. Once the bubble reaches her heart, the noises flood her existence. She hears the loud whirr of the wind moving her hair. The clicks of the car door closing. Television static charges out of the open blinds from the neighbor’s apartment. She hears the hesitation of the bubble.
Then, she opens her eyes. There is a green tint to everything. She looks around to the neighbor’s window, out onto the street where she had heard a car. She shakes her head and switches the song on her mp3 player. She stares at the ceiling of the tiny porch.
“You doing alright up there?” She asks the bees.
She was sure that today would be the day. She would have broken through the void of her heart. But, the small nest of bees kept her tied to her senses.
Is it really true that bees don’t attack first?
However that worked. Knowing that the bee’s lives were numbered kept her in this reality.