Sunday, February 27, 2011

My Favorite Song by La Roux

I'm Not Your ToyI really love this one song, I'm Not Your Toy by La Roux. The first time I heard it I listened to it for hours, hours, hours. But, my senses are too cruel to me. My favorite four seconds are interrupted by a korg-sounding harsh noise that annoys me. Thus, I can’t listen to my favorite song by La Roux anymore. Maybe you can, enjoy it for me, yes? ;)

Thursday, February 24, 2011

My Readers

I love all my readers.
I love talking to them
while they read the work,
after they read the work,
and when they’re not reading.
I love to hear how they
spent their day,
what they dreamt about,
and what they hope to accomplish in the future.
I love my readers because they inspire me
when my muse is gone.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

All Work

Ever have those times when you have so much on your mind that your thoughts clog up the gears and you cease to function? I know that I’m not functioning at 200% like I normally am and I’m starting to wonder if living life at 100% is better. What is the threshold between working and overworking, which door leads to the next dimension of though, where do emotions come from… these questions are bickering loudly right now. At the same time work is piling up!

This only reminds me of saying “All work and no play makes Sally, a dull girl.” Or makes Tom a dull boy. I’ve never agreed with that. I blame my Mexican heritage for this one:

All work and no play makes the soul reliable.

There’s a certain resilience built with work and more work. It strengthens the individual, condenses the matter in a brain… something like that. This isn’t saying that there should be no play, or that play isn’t important. Based on my ideology, this view only implicates that play is work. If you love your work, enjoy your work, and blossom off your work; then it’s not work. It’s play. Thus, if work becomes play a person who works all the time is only playing with you.

Ideally, It’s all play… we should enjoy, love, and blossom from all that we do. Skipping all the religious stuff I could write here… do something you enjoy and love today. All work with no love makes one dull.

Friday, February 18, 2011

In Color

I decided to overlay the rainbow on my picture. A kind of "It's all about me" type move. I really like this picture for many reasons. It's cute, fun, and it can go on all sort of promotional materials for me and my company. This photo mosaic is not complete. As the years go forward I'll be remaking it with pictures that I use in my projects/magazines. It's really a kind of digital record of the great things to come.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Colors of Paradise

Blue, Purple, and Green.
Colors of paradise with you.
Blue is the open sea.
Sea winds bow to you
in favor of your sapphire life.
Purple is a gloomy thought.
The idea dawns on me
that I may never know your thoughts.
Green is the earthly home.
The warmth that you provide for me
keeps me on my feet when I feel down.
It is paradise being with you
and Blue, Purple, and Green.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

One Day

One Day

they made dinner for each other
she broke the romaine lettuce
he fired up the steak on the stove
one had thousand island dressing
the other raspberry walnut vinaigrette
“just use the same plate, my love
you don't wanna wash it, do you?”
he said to her she looked at her fork
she had to have her salad in a bowl

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

How to Cheer Up

I think I worked Friday, Saturday, and Sunday on a final PDF for a magazine for way too many hours. Stayed up till around 4AM (no big deal right?) waiting with all my willpower for a 200MB file to upload to print it! Well, it's not a huge secret that I really hate prepress so... I was kind of down for a few. You know after 3 days of exporting like crazy InDesign and You just don't fucking like each other. CTRL-E CTRL-E CTRL-E

Well, I did manage to talk to my excohost of a WITR (RIT College Radio) show on Saturday, so that made the weekend of hell more bearable. But, what really did the trick... really did it was the most demoralizing thing in the world. I resorted to watching scantly clad women (well they had *enough clothes on*) dancing!

Yeah, I know... the honesty is astounding. Here are a couple of clips in case you want to listen to awesome music.

Check out the paint it goes on and then melts off!

Champagne makes them go wild!

You know they know how to count to 8! The three girls in the bell bottoms look like they have ballet training.

The wonderful tale of a prostitute with a heart!

Pain of disco! Check out them prints.

This Song is just PLAIN COOL

Monday, February 14, 2011

Monday Morning FEB 14

Grooveshark was at the moment of "creation." So, instead of a Grooveshark Playlist we have a Youtube Playlist! Good stuff. This week we have a mix of "electronica" varying from new wave, new age, 80s new wave, house, powerhouse, and jump. Enjoy! View on Youtube if the embedded playlist gives you "problems." [Grooveshark playlist added 10:50 CST 14-2-11]

Youtube Playlist

Track List
  1. Lemon Jelly - His Majesty King Raam
  2. The Helio Sequence - Don't Look Away
  3. Dominatrix - The Dominatrix Sleeps Tonight
  4. The Waitresses - I Know What Boys Like
  5. Visage – Damned Don’t Cry
  6. Animotion – Obsession
  7. Yellow – Lost Again
  8. Moonbootica – Jump Around
  9. Lorcan Mak – Gypsy Bum (Original Mix)**
  10. Dead or Alive - I Paralyze
  11. VAST - Pretty When You Cry
  12. Dead or Alive – Even Better Than the Real Thing
  13. Hadouken! – Mecha Love
Grooveshark Playlist

**Not available on Grooveshark Playlist

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Dominatrix Sleeps

Dominatrix sleeps tonight.
her whips and chains rest
for the day, leather gags,
belts, and the gas mask
all get a night off too.

wide eyes, soft lips, soft ass
no the Dominatrix won't be
lashing at that. not tonight,
tonight She Sleeps on her
soft bed of green feathers.

while you tie yourself up;
good old battery-operated-lover
rests between your legs
and recording of whips lashing
radiate from the TV.

Friday, February 11, 2011


Let there be no errors
No mistakes between
Two hearts that swing
On the pendulum of faith.

Heart of gold and heart of
Amethyst uniting in splendor
Of new beginnings, of new promises,
And the everlasting covenant
Beyond the graves of death.

Let there be no sullen
Whispers, no misunderstandings
The joining of heaven
On this Earth.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Broken Melody

Broken Melody

[I'm not antilove; it's something else]

ease away broken melody
lover, for all eternity
sing again the diamonds
into heart's soliloquy
of infinite blossoms
deep within folds of time
hold on through shadows
dear sweet sapphire
transpire into our lair
home of our rebirth
immortal victims, lover

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Awesome MNDR Photo Mosaic

The Most Awesome MNDR Photo Mosaic and Fan Video for the song Caligula (The Cold Mix)




Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Breezes for Birds

written in 1999

Breezes for Birds

I feel aloft on a great bird
with joyful notes playing as I fly.
Your gentle winds help me get through
the ever changing sky.
Joyful notes I play
with my wings threading
through your wind.
Gentle your winged thread is
I caress it gently as I fly.
Bird and wind
were meant for each other.
You were meant for me.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Monday Morning FEB 7

I’m stuck in a time machine. It’s not terrible, it’s just cold and dark sometimes. Last week, I traveled to my childhood. This week, we’re taking a detour to my adolescence. In 2002, I realized that I was very angry. This anger spawned out of virtually nowhere and consumed me. It consumes me. The worst part of this anger is it’s gentler side “hate.” Yeah, sounds like some real teenage angst.
“Everyone’s against me.
I don’t care.
Who cares.
Just die.”
Ran in and out of my mind, I suppose, often enough. My musical taste thus changed. My whole life changed. Hate and anger deemed that all beautiful things are ugly and my whole world is painted black. Even the red doors. Today’s playlist is dedicated to that one time when the sun stopped shining, the clouds hung low, and the future reeked.

Track List

  1. Paint It Black – The Mighty Lemon Drops
  2. System – Chester Charles Bennington (From the Queen of the Damned Soundtrack)
  3. Replicas – Deadsy
  4. The Dope Show – Marilyn Manson
  5. Lacrimosa – Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart (From Requiem)
  6. Lay Lady Lay – Ministry
  7. Afraid – Motley Crue
  8. My Own Summer (Show It) – Deftones
  9. Where’s Gerrold – Orgy
  10. Amerika – Rammstein

Sunday, February 6, 2011

For the Love of Writing

The cards are being shuffled, reshuffled, and reshuffled more often than not. I think one of the major reasons I began writing about erotica (other than I get curious about genres I haven't written about and start exploring) is because at one point in my super young life I decided that love doesn't exist.

Well, that was too brutal and as I started meeting people who are in love with their significant others I realized that yeah, maybe, there is love. I believe in a thing called love; but not for me. So what does this mean? This means that when the cards got reshuffled I drew the joker! Freaking joker curse of sin and all things evil.

I'm stuck writing about love. I can't even comprehend how this happened! Well, I could if I dissected all the events leading to this point. Regardless, how does one incorporate love into erotica of the type that I write? It doesn't work. As a person who doesn't include love into her writing... it's annoying.

I even had to watch a chick flick! I listened to chick flick music! I'm trying to prep myself for this immense task of writing about love, for crying out loud I'm even blogging about it. These are some deep silly rantings going on right now.

Writing about such a topic opens up those doors that we lock, barricade, and freaking put up barriers to. It's these doors that make writers lose their mind and walk the paths that zig zag between polar extremes. These doors pull people apart from themselves. But, I can endure it; for now.

[rant over]

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Freedom Exists in Books

I'm still keeping tabs on what is now being dubbed as the "Revolution" in Egypt. I found the following screenshot of The Most AMAZING video on the internet #Egypt #jan25 hopeful. The caption reads:
We will not be silenced, whether you're a Christian, whether you're a Muslim, whether you're an atheist, you will demand your goddamn rights, and we will have our rights, one way or the other! We will never be silenced!
We are living a really amazing moment in history. I'm more than overwhelmed and inspired with the different point of views from actual people standing at Tahrir square. We are so lucky in the US for many reasons. One of them is our "Freedom." Freedom is coming to Egypt, I just know it! It will also come to every corner of this Earth because us humans are so cool like that.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Horror-ble Story No 1

I always say; "there's a fine line between fiction and nonfiction." I say that, because I draw a lot of ideas from my life and the life around me for my writing. For example, one of my favorite poems "Magic," was written before and after I fell and injured my ankle for the hundredth time. It's ironic and sarcastic in a sense that I 'quit' dancing that year. But anyways, my mind is partial to nightmares lately. In my point of view, nightmares are the manifestation of soul-aching moments in our lives. Thus, Horror-ble Story No 1 spawned.

Horror-ble Story No 1 holds some secret nightmares of mine. I hope that you're kind to them, and that you don't suffer them too.

Read the five parts of Horror-ble Story No 1 on Our Twisted Nightmare

Part 1 Hear Things
Part 2 See Things
Part 3 Feel Things
Part 4 Smell Things
Part 5 Taste Things

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Mood Lightens Up

Egyptians killing Egyptians
This happened before
The Cycle of Death
Has returned as the
Sun rises again
Gun shots cease for a round
Wounded get carried away
CNN blurrs live webcam
Men, women, and children
New York Times rechecks sources

I feel for the Egyptian Protests. Long live democracy.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011


Courtesy of

Today, is an interesting day. Well, it kind of started yesterday, but it was close to after midnight so technically today. Anyways, I was exchanging music with my number one fan and out of nowhere sounds popped into my head. Now, this typically only happens with words, scenarios, poetry, etc. I'm really excited that it's happening though. Last summer, I wrote a post about life decisions.

It is now clear as what I want to do, or better yet, what I am prepared to do. It feels really nice, to know, what you want to do for the rest of your life. It also feels great to know how you're going to get from point A to point B.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Watching: She's the Man

She's the Man (Full Screen Edition)A Tori Tuesday Review by ToRI MaX

Thanks to Movie night, I came up with my second review. Although this movie was the third and last movie we saw together. For those of you who don’t know or remember check out the previous review. This movie is filled with more comedy, and it has its quirky moments. The last movie my friend and I saw was She’s the Man. Here’s Wikipedia’s summary:

Viola Hastings (Amanda Bynes) is a high school soccer player at Cornwall, which has just cut its girls' soccer team. After her request to join the boys' team is refused, she finds a way to play for Cornwall's rival, Illyria. Viola's twin brother, Sebastian (James Kirk), is supposed to enter Illyria as a new student, and since he is instead going to a contest in London with his fledgling band, Sebastian asks Viola to cover for him by telling the school that he is sick and each of their parents (who are divorced) know that he is staying with the other. Viola instead decides to pass herself off as Sebastian and join the boys' soccer team at Illyria. She hopes to beat the Cornwall team and humiliate her cocky and sexist goalie ex-boyfriend, Justin (Robert Hoffman). With the help of her friends, Viola becomes the quirky "Sebastian".

This movie made me laugh, and then made me smile. I have wanted to watch this movie for quite a while, and now that I finally watched it I am really glad I saw it. It has many love triangles like in high school or college. Thankfully, I didn’t have to suffer through a love triangle. It was a funny movie filled with teenage romance! You should watch it; it’ll surprise you.